Thursday, January 28, 2016

I Moved!

Hey, friends!

I've been hard at work during my little blogging hiatus and am so excited to share my new space with you.
Meet me over at baremama.com!

Friday, January 1, 2016

Clean


Tonight we took our first bath in 2016. I pictured it washing away all of the ugly from the last year, all those moments I swore I'd drown in the guilt. The months we didn't know what was going on with this babe, why she wasn't gaining weight--those months felt like long, torturous lifetimes. They stole so much joy, and we're still working on fixing all that was broken.

But today I can tell myself that was LAST year. I can separate myself from that season with something tangible like the numbers on a calendar.  I can tell myself to let go and stop holding hands with the ghost of a new mama who truly had no idea it was okay to trust her instincts over what the doctors said. I can sit here in the bath with my nursing, sleeping toddler (I'm fully aware both nursing and co-bathing are controversial at this age) and say no, you don't know my child better than I do, and I don't know yours. But I can bet we're doing the best we can to love them with all we have.

So love her I will, without guilt, this year and next and 75 years after that.

To kick off this new season, I'm signing off for a week or two. Hope to be back soon with a full heart and some fresh content for you, friends!

Happy New Year!